Saturday

So it’s Saturday; Ty and I are at home trying to get everything ready for when Davey gets off of work so that we can head back home. I am more nervous now then I have been all week. I keep wondering how I will handle being back there. I hope for Ty’s sake that I can hold myself together so that he will have a good Christmas.

I also found this quote today that I would like to share with everyone…. I guess it is the way I hope this weekend goes more then anything. I hope that being at home people know that it is OK to talk about Eli.

“The mention of my child’s name may bring tears to my eyes, but it never fails to bring music to my ears. If you are really my friend, let me hear the beautiful music of his name. It soothes my broken heart and sings to my soul.”

Next week I will be writing more, my life will have slowed back down just a bit. I am thankful that I can go home and see our families and spend Christmas with them, but I will also be glad to see life slow back down just a little. The anxiety of this week has been overwhelming, something that I used to never have, and something that I have to learn to deal with now.

So really I can’t wait for Christmas to be over and to start a new year. My family has began a new life a different life, and though I know this new year will come with it’s own struggles, it will also be a new beginning for us as well for we will be trying for another child sometime in the new year.

I hope everyone has a great weekend…. and I can’t wait to let everyone know how it went.